Fatherhood

I guess the change from being a free man to being a father is a sobering and deeply profound step.

Only when one becomes a father that you start to realise how deep is the Father's love for His child. I guess as someone who hasn't been a father before, it is indeed incomprehendable. This kind of love surpasses the love of a man for a woman. It surpasses the love for your parents, and it surpasses the love for anything else.

I find myself being inconvenient to so many things nowadays; I am getting less and less sleep. On a happy day, he'll sleep through most of the night without much coaxing nor attention. on a bad night, you'd be spending most of your time trying to coax him to sleep. And the thing is, you will still find it in your heart to love him.

A few months ago, I'd not even thought about this. I didn't have to. I used to go anywhere I like, whenever I like, however I like. Now, even stpeeing out the main door seems a challenge. The constant question will be: Will he be ok?

The impactful thing is that every time he makes a sound, everytime he doesn't sleep, everytime he makes a fuss, I will still draw near to him and hold him and give him the reassurance that he needs. He doesn't know it, nor will he remember it because his brain is still not fully developed. But That's what makes being a father so profound.

When you tie this to the love of God, you will indeed get a sense that He is so much more then just the God who saves.

He is the God who cares, loves, and gives unconditionally.

Blogging?

It seems that blogging will slowly become the thing of the past, especially with the emergence of facebook and twitter.

I have found that the more active I become on facebook, the less people need to visit this blog of mine.

Afterall, these 2 sites head toward the same direction; getting in touch with friends. A couple of years ago, a blog was one of the best ways to keep in touch, to keep your friends updated on the things that happen to you. But now, it seems that blogs are slowly becoming a thing of the past.

What is happening on facebook, which friendster failed to do, is that we are successfully adding emotion into our wall posts. This includes things like 'like' and 'comment' about anything that a person does on FB. Whereas in a blog, you'd need to be actively searching for what the writer is trying to say.

If this continues, sooner of later, we'd be all abandoning the keyboard for emoticon-boards. Words would be pre-typed and all you'd need to do is click the word and it'll be published.

Welcome to the world of pre-sets. If you look closely, you'd have seen the trend that the world is slowly going into a trend that is 'pre-set' yet customisable. Instead of thinking of a sarcastic remark to make about someone's post on FB, I can now conveniently click 'like'. And slowly, there would be buttons such as 'dislike', 'lolz', :), etc.

And slowly, the human brain will only process things such as this. Call it what you like; systematic improvement, technologically advanced, bringing life into cyber-space... I call it, the dumbification of the human mind.

If this trend continues, our brain will be trained to function as such. We will become from thinkers to button pushers. I do not need to tell you why I like a certain post, I just conveniently click 'like'. I do not need to say anything anymore, since I have already told the entire world that I 'like' the post. Everyone does it, and so I too must also do it.

And if everything is just like that, then no wonder the children's vocabulary is getting less and less expanse. Children nowadays read 'pre-set' words from the internet. Long gone are the days of the books where you are bound to learn a new word every day. Now, all you need to survive in the internet era is 'like' and that word says it all.

'like'

Busy, Adapting, Tired, Struggling...

Nuff said.

Hahaha...

Nah, I won't be that mean. But in terms of a brief summary of my life now, that's a pretty concise but accurate few words.

I'm rather busy at the office nowadays and mostly it's because we are still adapting to life as a new school, a new office, and a new administration. Equipment is still coming in, there's so many rooms that we need to prep-up for daily use, the students have to be taught, lessons need to be planned, and we are running a full-day school which means that whatever work we have to do besides teaching has to be done outside teaching hours, which means, at home.

I guess no one foresaw this issue creeping up from under our noses. I mean, it is normal for the Principal to ask for your paperwork on your lesson plans and all that if you're doing a half-day school session, but when the same demands are asked of you whilst in a full-day session school, it's a bit different. I mean, you have your teaching periods, and in between, you have your ad-hoc jobs. Then in the afternoon, you have your afternoon lessons, and when you really get home, you're a good as toast.

I'm feeling the crunch nowadays especially when baby doesn't want to cooperate with us on his sleeping time. He's been waking us up once an hour every night for the past week or so, and it was only until last night, when we didn't let him sleep through dinner time, that he was so knocked-out during the midnight hours.

Well, I guess life's like that until we get used to everything; the work, the baby, the new life...