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It's late at night and because I slept a while during the evening, I am wide awake now in the wee hours of the morning.

It's been about 3 weeks since I've been in Tawau, this being my 3rd weekend, and it seems like so much has happened. I haven't even gotten grips on how to live my life here. Adapting to a culture that you 'think' you know too well is a problem. Sometimes, I think I'm just paranoid, but then, there's nothing to underestimate about Tawau.

I am still not gotten a grasp of the passing of time. Which can only mean that my body is not adapting as it should, or used to last time. It seems that time passes so slowly, but then, I seem to loose track of time. I can't remember what day of the week is it simply because I used to count the days by what I had to do. Now, it seems that my time and jobs are rather irregular that I don't remember when is cell group, what time is practice, and basically what I am supposed to do each day. Maybe I should've gotten a 'Hi, and welcome to Tawau; Your Mondays are A, B & C at what times, Tuesdays are Free, Wednesdays are E, F & G at what times respectively, etc. kind of brochure.

I totally lost track of the sense of time that I failed to realise that I should be going back to KL this coming week to fetch my dear wife back to my side. Maybe it's the lack of such a partner and companion that I am in such a dire situation. My focus is not entirely here in Tawau, and I still have loose ends all over the place.

I hate it when life is not settled.

Coming back to the accident, in retrospec, I do feel that it was a blessing in disguise. I needed to get my car fixed anyway, but not under such circumstances, but financially, I might not have the ability to fix it anyhow. Anyways, the main thing is that now we have proper evidence to 'feel' that the fella who hit me fell asleep behind the wheel, and somehow, managed to keep driving in a straight line towards my car. The odds of that happening are like so slim, but it still happened, I wonder if God is trying to tell me something. But wahtever said and done, I am ok now, the day after the accident, my neck was under such agony... It felt the worst when I washed my hair... I can't apply pressure on my neck, but yet I still needed to...

Well, I guess I should just give God the glory and the thanks for keeping me and those in my car safe. Thanks also for those who helped me out during the incident. 2 cars came all the way back from Lahad Datu just to help me, and for that I am deeply grateful.

As for what I am feeling now, I miss my wife. And pray that I will have smooth passage back to KL on Tuesday/Wednesday. I haven't bought my tickets as they cost a bomb. Might as well wait for the very last minute.

I guess that's all for now. See you guys in Sunway soon.