Destructive Thoughts...

Seriously, after this particular chain of events that happened these few days,

I am doubting my own ability to write creatively... Can and will I survive on this careeer path that I have chosen? Did I make a mistake somewhere down the line?

I mean, I seriously do not know where I am going. It's as if I'm walking on this road without roadsigns. I can't see what's in front of me, and I don't know which way to turn.

I have been hopping around quite a bit since I came out to work in August 2004. 3 agencies, 3 styles, and I must also admit that I learned quite a bit from all of them 3. But I can't see myself working in this industry beyond the next couple of years.

I know where I am headed, but I don't see the road/path that is set before me. It's like I can see the KLCC from where I'm standing, but I don't know where to turn to take me there. Sigh... The worst thing is, I can't ask nobody for advice about this. It's like I'm lost and I'm on my own. I used to be able to ask my parents what they think about this decision or that decision. But now, I can't. Simply because they do not understand what I have to go through. They never will, and I do not expect them to...

Maybe it's time that I abandoned the safety net of my parents' protection and start to live entirely on my own. Make my own decisions based on my own wants and needs... and take responsibility for the decisions that I have made. It's about time I risked a few things... and it's about time I grew up, step up and take it like a man...

So help me God...