Monday, November 07, 2005

A Physical and Spiritual Revival

The break was full of rest. Mentally, physically, and spiritually.

I had loads of rest, did nothing, slouched in front of the tele, and did more of nothing.

The highlight of the break was last Wednesday...

I went to a friend's Cell Group the other day. Well, it was a Wednesday and I didn't have anyhting to do on Thursday, so I decided to visit Michael's cell.

It was an eye opening experience. Well, not actually eye-opening, but actually, it was a refreshing experience. I realised that I was actually human afterall. I mean I know I have been trying very hard to portray myself as strong and impeccable, but still, deep within my plethora of faces and defenses, I am reminded that I need God. I have been reminded that I need to renew my life in God and get my life back on course.

Well, to those who were there at the meeting, now you know my weakness. Now you understand that leaders are human too. No matter how hard you try to be bold and strong, putting on a strong face, you will still inevitably fall. My biggest weakness is that I am too strong.

Now, I need to get my life back on track with God. I have been relying so much on myself that I have left no room for Him...

So... back to the basics starting from today. Fast and pray, devotion, quiet times... I need all those back in my life.

So help me God.


Blogger BeArmorBearer said...

praise God! for u have been minister by God himself through this cell group! And I believe you did observe the differences in this cell group. Yes sometime we try too hard for God's kingdom but What God really want is our wholehearted heart, not what we can do, not result. Hahahha This saturday God also reminded me, that I shouldnt be result-oriended ahha....Praise God.

November 07, 2005 11:29 am  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

so stop chasing me for my report can?? heheheheh

I should be able to enjoy the process of filling in the report... and not worry about the result of the report... hahahahaha

November 07, 2005 11:43 am  
Blogger willywilly said...

nothing is more important than the father-son relationship you have with Daddy God :)

gambate brother! God is opening your eyes to be able to reckon Him ;)

November 07, 2005 1:25 pm  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

Ewilly: I actually saw that coming from a mile away. I know about all the problems that I was facing, and I know God was far away... It's just that I didn't have a way out. It was a problem of facing the problem myself, with no one to go to. No one who could listen to my problems..

So I held it in lor.

But now, I know that I haven't been doing the basics... :)

November 07, 2005 2:14 pm  
Blogger D@nnY (-.-") said...

hum, you know what, you realy gave me a very strong image of a strong leader. What i saw from you is that, you have a very strong character in leadership, very organize in everything. But just as what you said, your strength has became your weakness. You don't have a room for God to work within you because you're too strong, too self reliance.

I don't reliazed that until that day you attend the meeting and been minister to God. I wonder, for so long, how do you settle your problems? who do you share to? I believe that you are much more wiser than i am, i believe that you won't find an answer in me. But if you need someone to listen to you "fat lou so", i believe that as a friend. i still can do that geh.. haha.. anyway, try to be like a kid (when you're alone with God of course), that they will find someone for help when they are not able to do it. For christian, the "someone" of course is God. Anyway, God bless you and still care for all of us.

November 07, 2005 3:25 pm  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

Danny: Exactly! What you say is true... I have forgotten the naive and simplistic faith that I should have in God...

Let the little children come to me for the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these...

sigh... I need constant reminding...

No leader is super-human. Even Pastor has his weak moments.

November 07, 2005 3:51 pm  
Blogger BeaWuzHere said...


November 07, 2005 9:53 pm  
Blogger sephirot said...

Yeah glad that God ministered to you that day. I believe it was God who brought you to our cellgroup that day so that you and Him can reconcile once again. I believe that He truly missed spending precious quiet time with you. Yeah to me you were that strong steady character all the while but somehow i felt that something was missing in you... maybe the shining light of Jesus... but anyway now it's being restored and hallelujah~ continue the walk of faith my big bro~!

November 08, 2005 11:40 am  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

Seph: What you heard the other day only scratched the surface... There's a whole lot under that... But I'm getting on with my first step back on to the eternal road

November 08, 2005 12:04 pm  
Blogger BeArmorBearer said...

sometimes, me is me, If one day I stop chasing you means
1) I trust that u will give the report on monday 10am...or probably I know I will receive it before this.
2) I have give up !

hahha...I dont like chasing
others, because im fat hahaa cant run! so please understand me , becuz i need to have the report and count total member attending cell group and fail it properly and send to pastor's desk when we have the meeting.

you want to have good performance in your working place , so do I !

November 08, 2005 12:18 pm  
Blogger SaDdNesZ.jc said...

BABer: I choose 1.

If you don't get the report in your mailbox by 10am every Monday, then something has gone wrong somewhere... hehehe

Anyways, I'll always try to give you the rough number of members' attendance whenever I meet you... hehehehe

November 08, 2005 12:26 pm  

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